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To My Husband (Sonny),
To My Husband (Sonny),
Thank You. From the moment I laid eyes on you at 8 yrs old, I knew I was head over heels for you. That day i was so just in awe about how Gorgeous you were, i couldn't help but be jealous you weren't mine and I continued to make comments to My Cousin Brittany about you. Saying things such as I wanted to marry you and how I wish I were Erin and you were my boyfriend. Now I'm 29 and you have been my husband for 6 years. Not a day goes by I dont think God for You! Life is mysterious and yet funny. I Love you Honey
P.S. The Hunt Is Over!!
Your Wifey
(Cynthia)
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8/8/95 at 8 O'Clock
8/8/95 at 8 O'Clock
At 23 I was living in Nashville and had joined a singles club, down home singles, singles were listed in a newsletter and mailed out to neighboring states. I got a letter from someone in Virginia, he was 30, worked for an army base and wrote poetry. This was before the days of home computers and e-Harmony. We started writing in Sept, 1994 and wrote for 8 months, started calling each other after 7 months and met each other in April 95. He came back to see me in June and proposed and I moved to Virginia at the end of July. 8/8/95 at 8 O'Clock we were married.
We renewed our vows on our 20th
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38 YEARS.
38 YEARS.
Can I really move on and enjoy my remaining years without you. Failure to get a heart transplant took you from me. I knew I loved you, I just didn’t know that life without you could be so hard. I hear or see something, I want to tell you, to laugh about it together, but your gone. The thought of finding someone to share my life with now seems important but also impossible. I don’t want to start learning how love someone else. You were my wife, my best friend, you are part of me. It’s been over 3 years. I know I’ll never find another you, I don’t want to. Life will never be the same.
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The cold and windy day
The cold and windy day
The years have shown the wear of my heart and my soul.Times I feel so lost and all alone.Days no longer matter and my nights are so cold.It hurts to look back,it hurts to look ahead.If I could just go back to the day we meet.The cold and windy day,the hailing hard rain.To see the smile that lit the day.Density has taken us so far away.I wish I could of been more to you,your everything that you was looking for.You was perfect to me.I loved and miss our letters we shared while you was out to sea,the endless phone call that kept us awake till the sun rose the next day.Love me
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love is beyond powerful
love is beyond powerful
The greatest love opened within the core of my being and this love is beyond powerful, it opened up out of a bubble of oil substance and tears poored down my face, my hand grab my chest and could not believe that the love I’ve seeked my whole life was right within me all this time, all the joy, love. Peace and the brightest light are within core of life, it’s astonishing!!!! All we ever had to do was look within us and ask our own self about ourself, we never turn back in because we were taught who we were from our parents, asking myself about myself was all that was needed
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Our story wasn’t over
Our story wasn’t over
I met him 17 years ago at the beach, when we were both 17. It was love at first sight, but that week ended way too fast.
Four years later, I took a chance to drive 3 states away to see him.
It was a whirlwind romance that lasted two years. But we were young and the distance got the best of us.
We kept in touch, married other people, started families. But part of me always wondered about someday.
Last week, he died. And I am shattered.
Our story wasn’t over, but now we will never get the chance to finish it.
How do I grieve someone I am not supposed to love?
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A secret
A secret
I've held a secret since I was 16 years old. I am now 32. I am now married to a wonderful man (12 years now) the father of my children.
My dad never wanted kids, he left my mom when I was 4. My mom gave me to my grandparents who raised me. When I was 14 my mom came back. I tried to rekindle our relationship. She was a drunk, partied to much. I became rebellious. I got pregnant at 15, had my son at 16. The problem is my son is now almost 16, and I know my husband is not his father, but Ive never told anyone. We have had 2 daughters, and they are all our children. A secret I will die hidding.
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I'd relive all of those memories
I'd relive all of those memories
It was the start of something new. I signed up for college, ready to make the next move. I had waited for you for ten years, waited to express everything I never did but it turns out that it was too late. I was hurting, sacrificed a lot and lost myself in the process. It took losing you to realize I rather have you in my life than not have you in it at all.
Sometimes we can't have that happy ending but it's the moments you share with someone that makes them worthwhile. With every breath, I'd relive all of those memories.
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I never fell out of love
I never fell out of love
I have fallen in love many times but I never fell out of love. I didn't know falling out of love is real - and that it is just as painful as knowing that you are not meant for each other at all.
I am new to this falling out of love thing and it hurts so much that once I confess my feelings to my significant other, I know it will hurt him so much more. I don't want to hurt him, and I also don't want to stay in a relationship where I can't feel the love anymore.
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My Darling,
My Darling,
You came to me when I had just about given up on anything that would have resembled Love. You have shown me things that I would have never even thought of and have shown me kindness, gentleness, and compassion. It has almost been 7 years to the day that we had met and I never wish to be parted from you, nor do I wish to ever leave your side. Everyday brings new joys and challenges and I will gladly go through them with you. You have shown me heaven on earth here when I have walked through hell. My only wish is to one day to become your one and only
Forever
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Real love found me
Real love found me
I thought I found love in the eyes of a 16 year old boy, but as my innocence faded away so did he. I thought again that I had found love in a broken, drunken man, but soon found myself fighting to get out.A fight that nearly cost me my life.True love found me as a broken woman afraid to love. True love stayed and guided me through the war against myself. The first year I was drunk and angry, the second I was drunk and sad, almost suicidal. True loved brought me back to life, saved me, forgave me, and loved me for all I am. I once thought I had found love, but real love found me.
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Dear Lover,
Dear Lover,
I needed you and you weren't there. I cried for you and reached out for you only to find a empty spot. The things we were going through were supposed to bring us closer together instead it drove a wedge between us. I hated you, I didn't understand how you could turn your back on me. How could I hate you? My bestfriend, my spouse, my lover taken from me so easily. Why? Was it me? Was it the stress? I wanted to give you a baby, but my body was broken. I wanted a family, our family. Dear Lover I'm sorry I let you down. I'm sorry I hurt you. Mostly I'm sorry I let another in.
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We will never be
We will never be
I loved you. I was true to you. I saw my future with you. Until I realized that we can never be. We will never be.
I am to blame. My weakness is to blame. I wanted constant attention and when you were too busy to give it to me, my feelings gradually changed until I didn't feel the love anymore.
I don't have someone new, but I will lose you. I am sorry that I'm not strong enough to try to bring back all the feelings I had for you.
I loved you.
I am sorry that I will leave you.
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My love,
My love,
We are that cliche couple that were best friends before we started dating. To this day you are still my best friend. Even though I only see on the weekends because of college you still make me happy every single day. Thank you for figuring out life with me and letting me spread my wings. Forever yours.
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To my forever friend,
To my forever friend,
I remember the first time we met. You were the boy next door. You were 12, I was 13. We tried dating once in our early 20’s, but in all honesty, our friendship was more important to us. We both dated other people and our friendship grew more than I ever expected it too. You became not only my best friend, but my person. We both are married now, have families, and have drifted apart over the last few years. I miss you, my dear friend!! We will always share a bond forever no matter where life takes us.
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I only know I love you beyond everything else
I only know I love you beyond everything else
Leaving you at the airport as we separated for our basic training assignments was the hardest moment in my life. We had only been married for 2 short weeks after spending 3 years of dating and growing up together. The thought of being apart for 6 months and several hundred miles away was almost unbearable. I can still feel your arms around me, still smell your cologne on my shoulder and feel your kiss on my lips. All of these would have to help me survive until I see you again. How did we get here? Why did I let you talk me into this plan? I only know I love you beyond everything else.
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DEAR SOULMATE,
DEAR SOULMATE,
As I write this letter, tears come down to my cheeks, tears of happiness... If you'd known to what extent I am happy just waking up every morning and see you next to me and dozing sweetly... Lying in your arms and holding the little fingers of our dearest daughter makes time to come to a halt. I do not stop wondering, isn't it the most precious gift one can get in life? I love you from the bottom of my heart and will love you forever my only one...
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My true love
My true love
I met the love of my life when I was sixteen years old. We broke up when I was eighteen. We were young and did not understand the importance of the love we shared. At the age of twenty-two he walked back into my life. Four months later we were married. This year will mark five years. We have spent half of our marriage apart, but he still is and always will be my true love.
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Dear R,
Dear R,
After many years of friendship and visiting me everyday sometimes twice a day at work you convinced me we’d be amazing together. For over a year you were right and I lived my best life. But then something changed you, you stopped caring about my opinion, my feelings. It was all about you and what you wanted. I then realized that maybe our relationship from the very beginning was all about you, I never really stood a chance. Thanks to you I learned you can’t always blindly believe what people say no matter how great it sounds. At the end of the road, I found myself and true self worth.
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I've come a long way
I've come a long way
Getting over a broken heart is one of the hardest things I've ever experienced.
Most days I wanted to stay in bed. Most nights I spent crying myself to sleep.
I feel like I've come a long way in two years.
I'm learning to love myself again. I'm learning to enjoy life again. I'm learning to live again.
I'm beginning to believe in true love & I'm considering giving it another chance.
The one thing that scares me the most is giving my all & ending up with nothing. I guess it's the chance I'll have to take.
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